today started good enough. i was attacked around 7:30 am by a little munchkin full of hugs and kisses for mommy. we decided a morning snuggle was in order so we played hide from the sun under mommys covers before heading to thekitchen for some breakfast. mondays are not so bad when im off sunday and he has no school! heres to sleeping in for once!! yep, folks with no kids... 7:30am IS sleeping in! lol

we had eggs and toast with soy milk. after that was pillow fight and boogie time.

lunch was tuna sandwhiches with fruit punch. yum! followed by "the ant and the aardvark" (i fell asleep watching it for the billionth time and at some point he put himself down for a nap.) it was a cloudy, yucky do nothing day.

finally desmond awoke and got me out of my fog. we had dinner...pancakes!!!then it was homework and reading time.

after all homework was done we went outside since the sun was out at last. desmond wanted to ride his bike. everything was cool until, as usual he was more interested in what i was doing than where he was going and as fast as he was going he nearly collided with a car. IN CASE YOU ARE STILL WONDERING, THIS IS WHERE MY NEAR STROKE OCCURRED.

luckily the driver was paying attention. i think it took a good half hour for my heartbeat to return to normal and of course he had no idea why i was so upset. after a long talk i think i got it through to him. and i managed to not swear or go into hysetrics or yell. yay me! but it seemed to sink in. i told him i could lose everything else in the world and be ok but i cant lose my desmond because then id have nothing to live for. he apologized for scaring me and promised to practice safe bike riding.

we spent the last hour before bed time on his class' website looking at animals and matching the babies with the grown ups. he did a pretty good job. there is also a virtual pumpkin carving game too. he kicked ass on it. i was all set to print or save it so i could post it here but for some reason it doesnt print the carving, just the pumpkin . it also doesnt let you save the picture. lame. now he is sound asleep without a care in the world, only 19 minutes after being tucked in. must be nice.

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October 7, 2007 - Sunday

WELL THIS WEEKEND TURNED OUT A LITTLE DIFFERENTLY THAN EXPECTED
Current mood: cheerful
Category: Blogging

i started my mood stablizer friday. its called lamictal. there is a definite feeling iambipolar too with emphasis on hypomania based on our assessmentthis week on how im feeling now that ive been on the other meds for a couple of months. im told it could take up to five weeks to feel the efects but ive felt SIDE effects as early as day one...most notably extremem dizziness which fortunately as passed now. there are some othermild ones that are expected to go away. luckily i am not allergic. i am told to expect great things from this med. very little occurance of serious side effects and i dont feel all spaced out which i was worried about. ok yea te first day i felt high but im good now. imfeeling rather optiistic on the mental health front.

got to hang with a friend for lunch and a trip to wally word on friday. saturday is when things started to turn.

ikind of wasntin the mood for a date with the new med and all so i was going to postpone but he ended up blowing me off anyway. problem solved i guess. i didnt care so what does that tell ya? so i spent the day cleaning like a fiend and relaxing after a nice hot shower with a good book. got a lot of productive stuff done too that ive been putting off so it ended up being a pretty good day.

today i was supposed to get together with a friend and our kids but infortunately she suffered a loss and understandably we didnt go out. my heart goes out to her and her family. as it turns out desmond was his usual unpleasantself uponreturning from daddy who spoils the shit out of him. so hes having a nice nap while i remain sane. :) less than ten minutes he was out cold. honestly, does the kid even sleep there? i know he has no bed time there. no way is he going to bed at 7pm like here. consitency folks! the kid needs it. when he wakes up around 4 ill get dinner ready and hell be my sweet baby again.

anyway that is more or less it. nothing overly drastic going on inmy life at present which is actually a good thing. i have a fairly busy week ahead, some things i intend to take care of and ill be sure to keep you all up on. one has to do with me returning to school in the spring! once myhead is screwed on right of course!!! yay! way to get back on track tura!

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October 5, 2007 - Friday

OH HAPPY DAY!!!
Current mood: jubilant
Category: proud Life

today desmond did NOT get written up at school for the first time in a week!!!

WOO HOOOOOOO!!!!

if you are on his friend list go drop him a comment. and those who arent, drop in and say hi, just keep all comments kid appropriate. spooky is cool (hes talking reaper this year...again. lol) but super gorey and sexual obviously are not.

any and all encouragement to be a good boy in school is good and appreciated.. dont worry i can read any personal messages to him.

blessings,

ventura

PS HES IN MY TOP FOUR OF COURSE!

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THANK YOU EVERYONE!!!
Current mood: thankful
Category: Friends

for everyone both near and far who has been so supportive whether it is about my path to mental wellness and a fuller life, troubles with desmond or my mom's recent illness. i just want to thank you from the bottom or my heart for the thougtfult words, encouragement, prayers and healing energy. much love to you and yours. no matter where you are in the world or if weve met in person or not, your friendship is much appreciated.

love,
tura

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Currently watching :
Saw III (Unrated Widescreen Edition)
Release date: 23 January, 2007

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JUST CALL ME THE ENERGIZER BUNNY...
Current mood: overtired, but jolly
Category: overtired, but jolly Blogging

and no not cuz im a pink bunny banging on a drum or because of the obnoxious pink girliness of my new layout and no guys its not for THAT reason either(although i have never had a complaint! :) )

i am the energizer bunny because i have been running on fumes for nearly 72 ours with barely 8 hours of sleep.

why? you ask. well let me tell ya.

tuesday would have been restful except the fact that i had to sit up all damn day waiting for my new dishwasher. ive already blogged about it but that is where my lackof sleep begins. i tried to sleep in the afternoon but those with small children know how impossible that is when they are awake, and on to work i went with no sleep.

wednesday, managed to sleep a whole three and a half hours. just couldnt sleep. and this is with a paxil in my system! then i went out to the living room and heard my mom moaning in total agony. i pleaded with her to see a doctor. finally id had it and said when i get back from getting desmond off the bus your ass better be dressed. im making you go. so we went to a walk in clinic and wasted time and money and finally found ourselves at the emergency room where my mom spent the next 14 hours. desmond was extremely well behaved but by 9pm i knew i had to get the poor kid to bed and since i had to take him to work with me...no sitter...i had to stop at my place to get stuff for him and my uniform...totally forgetting my shoes and wearing sneakers to work. whoops! good thing i work in a hotel so he had a quiet room to sleep in. of course knowing he was there and might try wandering around the hotel by himself, i couldnt sleep at all on the sofa like i normally do. the worrying about my mom didnt help matters.

my mom was released early tursday morning against doctors orders. i wasnt there to strap her down to a hospital bed or she would have stayed. she beat us home. i slept just over 4 hours and once again just woke up. desmond was exhausted so he stayed home and drove my mom nuts the whole time i slept. turns out she has an infection in her belly. i went to see my shrink who is pretty much convinced i am bipolar 2 now and put me on a mood stablizer. we will see whats up in five weeks with that. i went to walmart to pick up my moms prescriptions and was there for an hour. found a cute little captain jack sparrow costume for desmond though. last one in his size too! had a friend stash it for me for tomorrow night. finally i get home and ive missed my brothers visit. desmond is bugging me for pancakes which i make and he takes two bites before saying he is tired. his room is trashed and i am so far beyond caring.i lie down and cant sleep. so i get up and change my layout and now i am here. i am so gonna sleep after the audit tonight! lol oh and tomorrow too. oh yea. that cell phone is getting shut off and no one better wake me up or they will DIE! lol for this reason i changed the delivery of my groceries to saturday, and it looks like i have a date of sorts. i had debated rescheduling but wat the hell. whats another weekend of no sleep? to go with the week of no sleep ive had. sunday we are hanging out with a friend of mine and her kid who is friends with desmond. tomorrow i am going out for brunch and a costume at wally world. i just dont know how to let myself rest do i?

ill have plenty of time to rest when im dead, right?

everyone have a great night!

love,

tura

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October 2, 2007 - Tuesday

BIGOTRY AND HATRED IN ANY FORM IS NOT TOLERATED BY THE RANCID ONE!
Current mood: pissed off
Category: Friends

..> BIGOTRY AND HATRED NOT TOLERATED HERE!!
i got this offline im...

ichewbox65: (10/02/2007 02:28 AM): What are you a nigger lover or something .?

so his sorry ass had to go. buh bye. but not befoe i told him what a worthless racist pieceof shit he is. if anyone else has a problem with this do us all a favor and delete your ignorant ass from my friend list as my friends and i dont have the time or interest to deal with your kind. my page is a love only zone.
..>

i welcome any and all mature adults who can appreciate our differences, not just embrace what is the same.

ill keep all my racially and culturally diverse, lesbian, gay, bi, tran/sexual/gender, pagan,satanist,atheist, agnostic, liberal, christian, republican, white, and otherwise "wrong" friends over ignorant,misinformed hatemongers any day so a note to all you haters...

KINDLY PISS OFF AND LEAVE MY SPACE. YOU ARE NOT WANTED OR NEEDED!!! I SUPPORT FREEDOM OF SPEECH BY ALL MEANS BUT WHAT I DO NOT SUPPORT IS WHEN THAT FREEDOM IS ABUSED TO PROMOTE HATE AND POLLUTE MY WORLD ESPECIALLY WHEN ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS CHECK MY FRIENDS TO SEE IF I AM "WORTHY".

PASS THIS ON IF YOU AGREE.

VENTURA

PS. INCIDENTALLY I AM A PEOPLE LOVER. :)

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October 1, 2007 - Monday

HEY GUYS YOU READY FOR A RANT? HEHE YOU KNOW YOU WANT ONE!
Current mood: peaceful
Category: Blogging

yes? well geez, now i am gonna have to disappoint ya. sorry but the past few days have actually been pretty sweet.

still wanna know about it? then read on...

well aside from desmond being written up twice for using the "f" word at school friday was good. on the way to school we gathered up leaves, acorns and pine cones since he had to bring in signs of fall for school. he even gave me a kiss and hug before i left, not giving a rats ass who saw. thats my boy!!! already an individual. i am really gonna miss those walks to and from school with him.

saturday i slept for a few after work and got to hang out with a really nice guy from my myspace friends list. hard to say where this will go but i can honestly say i had a good time and at the very least he is even more of a friend having spent time with him. i dont want to embarrass him or make him blush so i wont say his name but big hugs to him and warm smiles. (you know who you are!) after we parted ways i whistled while i worked on tidaying up my apartment and dreaded yet another long night at work. actually i didnt dread. i was in too good a mood to let work spoil it.

sunday morning i found out from the general manager that i topped my own top score( the one that got me that sweet $500 prize). now i am once again eligible for that or maybe even $1000 this time! woot! she smiled. and let me tell you a smile on that womans face is the most horrific thing i have ever seen. she was way too nice. i think the pod people got her. she offered me a ride home. my first thought was a very terrified "noooooo i dont want to ride in the crypty-mobile! it reeks of cigarettes and death and ass!!!! " luckily i had the perfect excuse to decline...my mom was gonna be hopping in my cab to go to work and i wasnt gonna leave her hanging.

when i got home i slipped into paxil induced oblivion. at 6pm my son came home from his dads. it was a short night for us as his bedtime is 7pm.

today he rode his new bus.his suspension is over. it is actually his old bus from when he did pre k in a different middletown school. they remembered him, he remembered them and it was a happy reunion. i felt so much better knowing these ladies had desmond in their care to and from school. i should have used this bus in the first place!hindsight is 20/20 right? anyway he got written up again for pushinga boy for taking his backpack but no "f" word so hey...progress. he seems to be better off without the melatonin too. that was my decision. and im not even a doctor. go figure.

here is my theory on desmond...

hes naturally igh strung and has had a lot to deal with in the past year alone...three moves and three schools plus a mom who seriously needed to chill out and take care of her own demons. that is a lot for a kid.

i dont believe he is adhd nor do i think he has any mental issues. i believe that now that mommy is taking better care of herself, the time i have with him, along with the help of a therapist for him to vent to til he feels better is all he needs. watch, ill bet you that $1000 prize im right. did i mention im not even a doctor?

what a bunch of dumbasses.

in the meantime i will consistently reassure him we are here to stay and that i love and support him. he knows now that he can talk to me about anything including being mad at me and i will love him and be proud of him no matter what. that was a major breakthrough. im gonna help this child with or without his worthless dads help.

i am looking hard for a day job. my mom is trying to pull some nepo-strings at walmart to get me in there and the manager seems pretty keen on the idea since i have her strong work ethic.des and i both need me back on days and sleeping at home at night. wish me luck on that folks!

and so you have it...life is a pretty sweet fruit.

blessings,

ventura

Currently listening :
Short Sharp Shocked
By Michelle Shocked
Release date: 23 September, 2003

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September 27, 2007 - Thursday

A MOST WELCOME REMINDER FROM A FRIEND...
Current mood: inspired
Category: inspired Blogging

thx spellcaster!!!

WHAT YOU SEE IS WHAT YOU GET

Visualize what you want.
See it, feel it, believe in it.
Your mind is your mental workshop.
You can build anything you want in it.

Make your mental blueprint and then begin construction.
See things as you would have them be instead of as they are.

Use your imagination to perceive your new reality
even when it's not fully materialized.
Remember, you must first clearly see a thing in your mind
before you can do it or have it.

Your imagination will show you how to turn possibility into reality.
The beginning of your success is in your imagination.
First think, then organize your thoughts into plans.
Then transform your thoughts into reality by taking some positive
action.

See the things you want as already yours.
Think of them as yours, as belonging to you,
as already in your possession.
Picture yourself as having already achieved your goal.

Dreams and ideas can cross continents and oceans.
They go anywhere you can go.

THE
DAILY GURU

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©2006 by Max Steingart
Reproduce freely but maintain © notice

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September 26, 2007 - Wednesday

I THINK I MAY HAVE SPOKEN TOO SOON ABOUT ULTIMATE TORTURE...
Current mood: drained
Category: Jobs, Work, Careers

i just got cussed out on the phone by my drunk supervisor over shit i had nothing to do with after barely sleeping the past 48 hrs. i have already topped the school open house in less than an hour at work. i am so close to walking out the door right now.

MAYBE ME GETTING CANNED IS WHAT I NEED TO GET FORCED ONTO DAYS AGAIN AND MY MOM WILL HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO QUIT MCDONALDS AND GET A SIT DOWN JOB THAT ACTUALLY PAYS WHAT SHE IS WORTH???

I REALLY AM NOT SURE HOW MUCH MORE OF THIS ABUSE I CAN TAKE BEFORE I GO COMPLETELY POSTAL. I NEED OUT BAAAAD!!!

and these drunk fuckers in my lobby need to piss off and go to their rooms!!!

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Rancid Jezebel is lucky to have survived the ultimate torture...
Current mood: grateful
Category: Life

...open house at an elementary school with an overtired 6 yr old..

to those who have gone before me and lived to tell the tale i salute you. thank the goddess i only have one kid! that one hour was sheer torture. ok sure there was fun..

desmond showed around and introduced me to friends and there was a slideshow(his teacher is emailing me the pics of him so i can put them up here.) i also got to sign up as a parent volunteer and there were goodies.

but it was too hot, too noisey and the microphone the principle used was up waaaay too high and his mouth too close. plus desmond bugged me all night to go outside and use the telescope i bought him at the book fair. turns out during our half hour wait for a cab we were able to view the moon close up which was cool except he kept knocking the thing off the wall and whining about not being tired and wanting to stay up.

less than a minute after hitting the pillow he was out. yaaaaaaaaay!

and tomorrow i get to walk him to school again only i have no plans but SLEEP. tomorrow is going to bemy favorite day so far. and today was payday! imagine that!

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SOME QUESTIONS FOR THE FELLAS
Current mood: impressed
Category: Friends

im getting such a positive response to this post i thought id keep it going. you guys are making me all warm and fuzzy. MUAH!

love, tura

-----------------------------
i am getting a lot of "ask me questions" lately so i figured id post this for any guy who wants to answer them for me....

send it to me...dont repost.

well my brain is a little fried but here are a few questions...
dont worry, none are about your favorite color...

1 what drew you to me...be honest. something on my profile made me stand out.

2 if we were seeing each other and i asked you to go to something you werent really into but meant a lot to me would you...

go and at least try and have a good time...since id do the same for you, not go and promise to make it up to me, or go and sulk the whole time.

3. how superficial are you on a scale of 1 to 10?(everyone is at least a little)

4. how do you feel abut kids?

5. what is the biggest turn off about a woman? THE deal breaker.

6. would you support my right to be pagan if your friends and family were totally against it? (im not saying choose me or them, just stick up for me, stand up to them.)

7. what was your best relationship experience? your worst?

8. who is your best friend and why?

9. what is your opinion on someone who takes medications for psychiatric reasons...not homicidally insane or anything...but for a chemical imbalance? this person of course is otherwise totally normal.

10. give me a rundown of you...job, interests, personal beliefs and philosophies, family, marriage history, etc. the basic stats.

ps doesnt it feel good to share?

Currently listening :
On How Life Is
By Macy Gray
Release date: 27 July, 1999

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THANKS TO MY GUY FRIENDS...
Current mood: impressed
Category: Friends

i am getting a lot of interesting responses from you guys on the questions bulletin i posted. it is definitely reminding me there really are decent menfolk out there and its amazing how much we are alike on the inside. you guys are definitely raising the bar for me in regards to the men i choose to date so pat yourselves on the back cuz YOU ROCK!

love,
tura

Currently listening :
On How Life Is
By Macy Gray
Release date: 27 July, 1999

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September 25, 2007 - Tuesday

FEELIN' BLAH ALL OVER...
Current mood: blah
Category: Blogging

no no no...its not about that guy. meh. im so over that. first time out of the gate after billy remember? and i was losing interest before the roadside incident.

no my blah is closer to home. its me. and my lack of thyroid med since my doc has dragged his ass about calling the pharmacy and authorizing the refill. so ive been off it for two days and once i hit day three im gonna be useless. good thing i at least have my klonapin to at least take the edge off the moodiness i have been feeling all day. that is handled by a different doc.

i also have a sinus headache which isnt helping my mood much and my keyboard on my laptop is sticking all over. especially the space bar so now i have to use the work computer. meh again i say. not the most comfy position in the world to stand between the desk and the big ass printer where the work computer is. im kind of twisted funny. ok i was referring to my body folks, not my personality. lol

good news! my sense of humor is still fully intact. hooray! i may be off for a few days once i get home in the morning to give my med a chance to kick in. all i want to do is sleep right now. my last two arrivals better hurry up and check in! that couch is looking mighty tempting over yonder and that thar lobby!

in the meantime everyone have a great week and ill see you soon!

love,

tura

Currently listening :
Chants: Ritual Music
By Reclaiming Community
Release date: 16 October, 1997

...open house at an elementary school with an overtired 6 yr old..

to those who have gone before me and lived to tell the tale i salute you. thank the goddess i only have one kid! that one hour was sheer torture. ok sure there was fun..

desmond showed around and introduced me to friends and there was a slideshow(his teacher is emailing me the pics of him so i can put them up here.) i also got to sign up as a parent volunteer and there were goodies.

but it was too hot, too noisey and the microphone the principle used was up waaaay too high and his mouth too close. plus desmond bugged me all night to go outside and use the telescope i bought him at the book fair. turns out during our half hour wait for a cab we were able to view the moon close up which was cool except he kept knocking the thing off the wall and whining about not being tired and wanting to stay up.

less than a minute after hitting the pillow he was out. yaaaaaaaaay!

and tomorrow i get to walk him to school again only i have no plans but SLEEP. tomorrow is going to bemy favorite day so far. and today was payday! imagine that!

i will repost part one and then the new blog follows in red.

DOES EVERYBODY REMEMBER THIS...???(some wont as they hadnt been added as friends yet.)

July 2, 2007 - Monday

..> ..> banished from ihop
Current mood: aggravated
Category: Blogging

ever have one of those days where you just wish you could go back to sleep and start over? today was one of those days for me.

desmonds bus for summer school never showed up. i got a letter from the school pretty much ordering me to have him out there at 7:35am ready to go or else! (it was in bold. ) they had no idea he had to be picked up. .. this meant i missed my therapy appointment...

which was cancelled at the last minute because the therapist's kid was sick with a fever(understandable). good thing i forgot to call for my ride the friday prior or id have to hear about it from my insurance company.

already i have decided i want to stay home and hide under my covers. something told me not to leave the house today. people really need to stop questioning my intuition...

IHOP- i manage a smile and we(me, my mom, and desmond) head out to have breakfast at ihop before going to rent a center to look at furniture(oh yea they get honorable mention in this blog for pissing me off...but that is later.) we are sat after a short wait. no big deal. the manager offers us crayons and explains to us( like he always does) how to use the childrens menus...like we are stupid but i pay no mind. he is just like that. i politely decline the crayons but he throws them at us hard enough to knock the silverware out of its napkin and blurts out "well im just going to leave them here anyway." and storms off

ok now, wtf?

whatever, i move on from that. (oh how i wish id left at this point.)

our waitress come s to take care of us and is set to take our drink orders and i say that we are ready to order too. she snaps at us, "well which do you want? your drinks or to place your order!"

ok again i say...wtf???(things in italics are thoughts not what i actually said)

when i was a server at friendlys i could take the full drink and food orders of three tables within a few minutes and not break a sweat. is it my fault she sucks at her job? whats with her attitude?

whatever. .. i move past it. (oh man i should have left at this point!)

desmond of course decides to act up at precisely this moment and ...GASP! i let out an "f" word. alert the media folks. a parent used profanity when yelling at her kid under her breath. a family had just been sat in the booth next to us and this woman had the nerve to lecture me on using profanity in front of her children when she was "freakin" this and "freakin" that. pardon me, but isnt freakin just the pg-13 version of fucking? what kind of example is SHE setting? like she has never slipped in fron of her kids? i said the word ONE TIME!

she is also raising her voice and i am trying to take the high road here. i prefer to avoid confrontations especially in public and in front of my kid. I LIKE TO SET A GOOD EXAMPLE FOR MY CHILD. but she keeps at it til another manager splits us up.

then one of the managers(not the one who threw the crayons at my kid) says "can i take your bill for you?" i say yes and she comes back.

you know how when you use a credit card they give you the bill in the book with a pen? she tossed the slips on my table with no pen and walked away. so naturally i quietly mutter what the fuck?(yea they had no problem taking my money!)

the ruckus had long since died out and this bitch(the manager) wanted to start up with me for who knows what reason? the couple with their kids had long since forgotten about me im sure. this cow comes up to my face...three inches away mind you and goes "your language is attrocious, you should be ashamed of yorself for acting that way in front of your child."

whoah hold on a sec bitch. do not question my parenting skill over me saying FUCK one time!

she then tells me i am no longer welcome there...no big loss as i have no intention of ever returning there again. their food and coffee suck anyway. but their service is HORRENDOUS. i can go to the newport creamery and get good food and exceptional service. they never throw things at me or call me a bad mother.

she follows me as i am leaving and cusses me out in front of the whole restaurant and i am trying so hard to keep my cool but this bitch pushed all my buttons and once and it is only because my mom and my kid were there that i didnt lay that bitch out and get taken away in handcuffs.(did i mention i have no criminal record? but this bitch pushed me that far.)

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!!!!!!!!!!

we were made to wait on the side of the road for our cab to rent a center....

RENT A CENTER- over priced used furniture but that is not the half of it. did you all know that on the application for rental they have the audacity to ask for AGE, SEX, AND RACE? why not ask for sexual orientation, religion and whether or not i have a disability? WHY DO THEY NEED TO KNOW THIS AND ISNT IT ILLEGAL TO ASK THIS STUFF ON A RENTAL APPLICATION?

if i am wrong let me know. regardless, i wont be doing business with them. i found an awesome bedroom set at st pauls thrift store that is way better and i can get a brand new mattress and box spring. that set and the living room set costs less than just the bedroom at rent a center. their loss.

i am home now.

i am so happy now.

i waited til id calmed down to write this...can you tell?

at least im off tonight. yay! still i doubt work could ever work me up THIS much. seriously. i have chest pains, high blood pressure, cramped shoulder and arm muscles, and i almost kicked someones ass in front of my kid. all because i said a bad word. all i wanted to do the whole time was go home and cry.

but now i am home. its nice and quiet here except for spongebob. i am among sane people. :) and having desmond hug me and tell me he loves me makes everything all better.

thanks for enduring my rant.

blessings,

ventura

ps did i mention i was carded this week? :)

..>..>

well folks yesterday we decided we needed a break from the creamery and decided that the worst thing that could happen upon arriving at ihop is i would be asked to leave. no big. i was feeling too good to cause waves and there are plenty of other places to eat. but man did i miss those swedish pancakes! lol

and now...the tale of...

WIOTCH, THE BEE SLAYER

the wiotch and her travelling companion, "she who has yet to be named", came upon the dark and dreary lair of the she hobbit who guards the house of the international pancakes. she is an evil troll of a woman and a mighty foe of the wiotch. they were granted access due to wiotch's newly shorn and blonder mane which fooled the troll goddess or perhaps it was the money card and the availability of outdoor eating accommodations that made her feel more charitable and forgiving. nevertheless, the daring duo entered at their own peril...weaving their way through a hoard of pancake sucking barbarians with the help of thie blonde guid who would be assisting them in their quest for the international passport...

while dining al fresco the two were acosted by a most viscious and aggressive ( and totally unprovoked) creature...the mighty bee. a worthy adversary if ever there was one. it circled us, got its nerve on and went straight for my dining companion. attracted perhaps by her fruity perfume or her cranberry juice..that is anyones guess. she shrieked and the wiotch went into action looking for the best way to eradicate the threat without upsetting the other patrons but alas there was nothing to trap, squoosh or otherwise defeat this fearless creature.

special note to all harm none types, it was life or death. this bee was unstoppable and quite possibly of this dimention! for it had an amazing tenacity.

suddently the bee decided to make its home in the glass of cranberry juice and the quick thinking wiotch went into action, sacrificing her yummy tomato uice with lemon, dumping the remaining contents into the cranberry juice. still this was not enough as the mighty bee floated up to the surface and started doing the backstroke...mocking the wiotch! "is that all you got" he seemed to be saying.

not to be outdone, wiotch grabed a fork and trapped the arrogant insect witht he tines up agains the inside of the glass as it desperately tried to break free from its soon to be final resting place. at last the tenacious bee gave up and victory went to the mighty and brave wiotch...inspiring a fellow soldier at another table to join in the fight and vanquish the foe at his table.

as our duo waited for their tab to be settled, reinforcements arrived. the fallen bees' tribe was there to exact vengeance on the one who had taken their brothers down. theonly smart thing to do was to flee and live to fight another day...this time with back up. and so the mighty wiotch and she who has yet to be named left the evil fortress of ihop unscathed but wiser and prepared for the next onslaught.

and so a legend was born...

go on and say it...im not right. but you have to admit its a funny story. needless to say it appears the ban o tura has b een lifted or forgotten or whatever so i am going to let bygones be bygones as long as i am not bothered while i dine.

hope you all enjoyed that revisit to the first part of this tale and werent drinking anything when reading the rest. wouldnt want to be responsible for wetting of keyboards and monitors. :)

blessings all and i hope this gets your week off to a great start!

ventura

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DEAR JOHN..
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Category: Romance and Relationships

ERR. I MEAN DEAR MIKE.

well i guess he figured it out. i got an email this morning from him saying "i guess you had enough of me". i am guessing he realized my profiel is no longer private and that my status is set to single again.

here was my reply. i think i was a lot nicer than most would have been considering what he asked me to do on the way to pagan pride...

MY REPLY

im sorry. i like you but i dont think we are gonna be compatible. i get that you are not into the pagan thing but i feel like i could have just taken a bus and gotten more out of it and done something else with you another time. things seemed kind of awkward after that request you made at the side of the road on the way. considering we had not slept together at that point it seemed kind of inappropriate to me since that is something i only do with somone very close and special and we are still too new for that. and then with you not calling me it just sort of sent me the message that you were mad that i said no. i really did think there was potential and i think you are a really nice guy but i dont know what else to say. i think maybe i am a bit to extroverted for you too. and that could be a big problem down the line as i am very social and touchy feely with my friends. if i am wrong by all means let me know. no matter what i am all for staying in touch and being friends. ill let you decide what you want to do.