Current mood: loved
Category: blessed Life

well i handled desmond being a terror his first week and a half with grace unknown to me before. amazing how a little sleep and an anti anxiety med will do that. i have to say that although i have always loved my son, i am actually enjoying being a mom now. i mean really enjoying it with all that i have. being better rested and less stressed allows me to have real quality time with my little guy and it is starting to reflect in him. he just needs a little adjusting time in school is all. after all it is his third this year! imagine how youd feel! i am making sure he knows we are not going anywhere anymore and he will be at that school for five years and then he moves on to junior high. i am very proud to annoucne he brought home papers with starts or smiley faces on them so academically he is off and running! way to go desmond. so i discipline enough to get the point accross and am sure to praise for his good behavior and accomplishments. i am a firm believer in positive reinforcement. now if only i could get his dad out of the dark ages and actually participate in parenting...er maybe not. he kind of sucks at it. grandma and i will be team desmond back at my place! yea that is a better idea. :)

i spent the day with my mom who has been having great difficulty getting aqround lately and lots of pain. last weekend she was diagnosed with sciatica at the e.r. and put on three days leave from work muscle relaxers and pain meds. still hurting by the end of that she made an appointment with my doc who is now hers. he seems to think she has a collapsed pelvis/hip. so off we went to x ray with me doting on her the whole time which must have been tough for her since she is the one i got my stubborn i can do it myself personality from. i insisted on going with her, pushing her around in a wheelchair since that is the only time i get to push her around. lol. she got a big kick out of that. she is out of work for another week and i told her if she tried to do any housework while on rest id bury my foot up her ass so far theyd have to bury me with her. she has finally decided to give up one of her two jobs too to my relief. hell i wont work two jobs and im 34! i told her she needs to stop making me look bad. oh yea i was comic relief big time today. i said if she doesnt quit her day job where she is totally unappreciated when she returns to work i will go in therer and get her fired if i have to streak through the dining area wearing nothing but a sign that says im terry's daughter if i have to. we had a nice lunch at chilis. a rare treat since she works so much and a long walk home due to the pain. still she refused to lean on me for support. stubborn woman! desmond had gotten off the schoolbus at this point and was cheering her on saying "you can do it grandma" and he was a big boy and stood guard at the back door of our building with her while i ran to the ront to let them in from the inside. (our key only opens the front door cuz of where our apartment is.) no way in hell was i gonna make her go all the way around. did i mention how proud of my son i am? he kept her company , kept her spirits up. at any rate she is resting peacefully and the only thing i will let her do that involves exercise is raise her arm to work the dvd player. shes gonna hate it. lol hey shed do it for me in a heartbeat. im pleased to say i got my $500 that i won from work finally too. couldnt have come at a better time! so anyone who doubts there is something or someone out there...take note.

now you are probably going what is this business about an arrow in the ass? i mean cupids arrow of course. my mystery man and i confirmed to each other we are not the least bit interested in anyone else and have already planned on two more dates after tomorrow. so i guess its official. :) tura is no longer on the market. i spent most of the week thinking about him so looks like he went and did it. he feels like a keeper too. time will tell of course but this is the best i have felt since...oh god, maybe high school? damn! i am not going to do a lot of blogging about this as i dont want to jnx myself but i will tell you all his name...michael. and he gives the rancid one, big butterflies and warm fuzzies.

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!

ok shut up! lol

ooh my phone is ringing. im guessing hes had his dinner by now. he works so hard. ttys.

blessings,

ventura

Currently listening :
Bleed Like Me
By Garbage
Release date: 12 April, 2005